In the musical the Sound of Music, Fraulein Maria, finds comfort in the words of the Reverend Mother, “When God closes a door, somewhere he opens a window.” Though my situation is gravely different than that of the Von Trapp family, there have been many times in my life when I also find comfort in this thought.
When I decided to apply for the Episcopal Service Corps, I was at a place in my life that not all up and coming college graduates are unfamiliar with: it was something along the lines of “what am I going to do after graduation?” My super cool fancy political job fell through (and thank goodness for that) and moving home wasn’t something I wanted to do. For quite some time I was interested in serving with the Peace Corps but I had reservations and wasn’t quite sure that that was the right path for me. ESC came to me through my mom and after reading about the program and the non-profits that fellows had the chance to work with; I knew this was the window that I had been looking for.
This year hasn’t been easy and there were many times when I found myself questioning if this was all worth it. Was it worth the hassle of trying to qualify for food stamps? Was it worth the hassle to work in a job placement that I knew was important but wasn’t what I wanted to do in the future? Was it worth it to be so far from home and live in a city that I was unfamiliar with?
I felt many doors close this year without any windows being opened. But as my year of service comes to an end, I am thankful for the big window that opened; a job. In July I will be moving to Houston to begin working for the Episcopal Diocese of Texas as Bishop’s social media assistant. And while this will be another move and another new start, I am looking forward to seeing how God uses me in this position. This was the window that I didn’t know I sought, but ended up being something that I wanted. If I learned anything this year it was that no matter what doors close, keep an eye out for the opening windows because at the end of it all God has plan.
Mary, Sustainable Food Center in Austin